Secret Alphabets

I've been very happy and sad this month.

i've been through a lot emotions yet i can't use any of them to fuel the creative side of me.

hmmmm....

im enjoying myself too much these days about something, i need a distraction.

I don't think its good to be too happy at times coz bad things will come and bite you in the ass. Right before you know it .. haha

yeah i doubt anyone understands what i just wrote, im not too open abt writing stuff on the net.

a few days ago, i found a line from a song that fit how i felt this whole year:

I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere.

so thanks ATL <3

ps- im still not over my kasabian thing. :D

oh btw, now i really really really want to go and see AAR, next next month. Just hoping this swine flu thing will be over and done.

you can sit beside me when the world comes down.

inspiration:a sudden intuition as part of solving a problem

Will somebody please be kind enough to pass me some of that these days. It's really getting on my nerves that I'm not even giving a damn about doing anything about it to fix it.

i used to be high on inspirations now im just not having any luck in catching anything around me.

oh im sorry for not updating much in August, ive just been *blank*
i guess you can say its not been an emotionally joyful month.

Im the king and she's my queen..bitch!

random thoughts for today:

1) im having a creative block these days, i can't seem to pick the camera and take a picture without hating it.
2) I'm really hoping it will go away soon, it sucks that i cant take pictures these days.
3) I can't seem to write about anything in my blog right now without adding something about Kasabian.
4) my mum is doubting me right now, she thinks i don't believe in god coz i keep speaking of death.
5) mums and their wild imaginations.
6) i do believe in allah, its just i've accepted the concept of death. if it comes for you..it comes for you.
7) i can't believe i just wrote that, now you must think im crazy.
8) get loose, get loose (kasabian-vlad the impaler)
9) did u knw vlad the impaler is count dracula. thanks wiki :D
10) some teacher in my sch died today coz of H1N1, i dont knw her. so im not really sad.
11) am i a bitch for being so heartless?
12) every parent in subang is on high alert now about this swine flu thing... suprise.
13) it wouldn't have gotten worse if malaysians actually used their brains and didnt go out when they were diagnosed with it.
14) we're the 4th highest country now, can u believe that. this small little country has the 4th highest death.
15) what does that say about us?
16) i dont think my parents are letting me out of the house at all.
17) i feel like eating ice kimo
18) i have kasabian running around in my head, and i don't think thats healthy.