Don't you think we ought to know by now.

It's one of my favourite songs from John Mayer.

thanks for being there for me you guys, it means a lot to me :D

Be Somebody.

A state of mind.

since i was stuck at home for the whole day.

i made a new pet for myself.

i knw its sad to do that but i should do whatever pops in my head. This is the best time to waste time before i don't get the chance to waste time ever again.

dinosaur (happy meal toy) + some torn paper + a bird cage = my awesome new pet.

Stop this train.

im reading 'submarine'

author: Jim Dunthorne

its like catcher in the rye, but this guy sounds more smarter and hornier.

word of the day: triskaidekaphobia

got that from the book.

Sexface!

agreee with the title?

don't mind me, im having my monthly bipolar rob thingy diseases. :D

i've only found out that i usually have this bipolar rob disease when im pms-ing..which is very weird. i should go and see a doctor about this hahah

Slow dancing in a burning room.

i am SUPER EXCITED *jumps around like a 5 year old*

Excuse my outburst of happiness, i am as happy as a fucker because i am going

to see tysonritternickwheelermikekennertychrisgaylor.

a simpler form of words: the all american rejects.

i mean when does a dream like this reallyyy come true, so yes im going to relish myself in happiness at the fact that they are stepping on malaysian soil and finally performing here.

adding Kasabian (yeah! them. :D) and Boys Like Girls (somehow this is very nostalgic bringing me back to those i-am-in-love-with-warped-tour-bands) hhaha

nonetheless, i wish they brought Kings Of Leons here coz that would be like double whammy of happiness.

Jared Followill *drools*

singalong *ive got tickets,ive got tickets*

it seems sooo weird that when i bought my tickets i was the most excited person standing there,* all giddy and smiling* and everyone else was like "whuts this?"

i must add: i hate malaysia -_- we are never excited by anyone coming.

that is why nobody GOODDDDDDDDD ever comes here.

and that noone looked at VJ UTT.. come on people. he's hot.

note to self: must move out .. haha

currently reading:

submarine by Jim Dunthorne

i am in love with:

John Mayers music.

i am learning:

how to use photoshop and making hippy headbands to fill time.

which is sooo flipping flippity awesome, maybe i can build my hippy headband empire.

ha! im one to talk.

is there:

anybody out there that will give me a millie?

i wish:

for jared to be my husband haha and a 500D since i saw that it had face detection and can make videos. haha

till next time,

Selamat Tinggal

word of the day:

supercalifragellisticaspealidocious

ps- i must add that having a blog has been a such an easy way of interacting with my friends.

i mean eventhough i dont talk tu u guys at least i knw whats going on.

Your big imagination's playing its tricks on you

i love photoshop.

:D

Dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part.

i touched the camera today :D

Experimentation.

ive been avoiding some stuff lately and wearing a pissy moody face, thanks to John Mayer for lifting up my spirits...for today.

excuse my sucky phtotgraphy, taken with slow shutter coz i wanted the natural lighting coming from the small window by the right.

Passing out to the sound of your voice.

He said: we'll think about college.

fuck yeah!

excuse my outburst of happiness :D :D :D

Gravity is working againts me.

that is my ABSOLUTE favourite picture at the mall nowadays.

i mean i stand in front of the Nike store and just stare at that picture.

and yes it looks way better at the store than the one i posted, you should go and check it out at the Nike store in midvalley where they have the big one.

i mean the background with all the bokeh,rain falling and wayne rooney screaming his lungs out just screams FOOTBALL, and the most i like about it is that it looks soo simple. like someone just came out and snapped this. i am seriously wondering who the phtographer was.

irah, this is the one i was telling you about. :D

i finally found the pic online.

Notion

My whole weekend turned out to be pretty oookay, on a scale on 6/10.

so yeah.. PRESS RECAP button on my brain.

on friday night:

i went to celebrate my cousin's birthday party at TGI fridays with his friends. I just joined in for the fun eventhough i didn't know many of his friends. It's weird that i was the only eighteen year old there and everyone was like seventeen and stuff. hahaha so yeah farah was like chaperoning. it seem kind of sad lol. but besides all that, they all turned out to be nice to talk to coz they were the type of people im used to hanging out to. so yeah! thank god my cousin have the same taste in friends. we ended up cracking up jokes about random stuff and fooling around in the mall until 11 something, when we got hoo-ed by the guard. all and all it was fun to mingle with people you dont know :D

on saturday:

i was sooo damn excited on saturday coz we were supposed to go and watch Harry Potter, so i had a smile on my face the whole time. seriously, you have no idea how big harry potter is to me. as like irah suggested, i didnt re-read harry potter coz i didnt want to be the bitch babbling about how awful the movie was so. and thennnnnnnnnn i just had to sit next to some fucking devil child that is the next son of satan, its just that he (satan) hasnt found him yet. OMG how i felt like hitting him. i knw i sound violent and for someone to read this entry right now they must be like "wtf ir wrng with girl, its just a litte boy", well excuse my anger cause i rarely get mad on my blog entries. so back to the devil child, he totally fucking ruined harry potter for me and because of that i have to watch it all overrrrr again. i can't wait!! :D

and i totally have a crush on that mclaggen dude (i think thats how u spell his name)

he.is.hot

i hateee kids,esp those devil child ones.

after HP *grumbles*stupid kid. i had another birthday party at my cousin's house. which was okay, and kind of dragging since all the boys were upstairs watching the man utd game and how malaysia scored 2, thats rite 2! goals. im guessing tht the man utd goalkeeper was too confident of himself and totally let the guard thus, this lame guy scores twice.

and nazren went on about how that guy will get a datukship for doing soo hahaha

ill be keeping my mouth shut if this guy totally creams the man utd goalkeeper at the match tonight.

so tonights match will be pretaay interesting to see if malaysia can actually kick man utds ass, i say it won't happen. But hye! you never know.

pls let me add that there was noone hot on the field. not on the malaysian team and not on the man utd team.

BRING TORRES PLS :D

sunday:

lazzy sunday. thats how i usually spent it.

wake up at 10, off to bangsar...home...home..dinner...sleep.

nothing worth writing about Sunday.

its getting pretty depressing staying at home, maybe its not home. but i feel like theres something wrong.

from jason mraz album:

Waiting for my rocket to come.

and btw, i got a haircut. its not awesome bt at least its something.

till next time,

Selamat Tinggal

Before i lose control, there's just one thing you should know.

i want:

Canon Powershot G10

i seriously have to stop flickring nowadays and concentrate on the outside world.

i've not gone out for a few days due to the haze and smoky conditions outside without sneezing.

next project:

a beatle themed picture for my cousins bday card. if im up for that...

addicted to:

1)flickr

2)450D book ( i am soo retarded when it comes to manuals)

3)Kings of Leons/John Mayer/Motion City Soundtrack/Jackson 5

4) The City ( i keep missing them on tv)

A memory of what we used to call in love.

Nothing much happened yesterday, i spent around 7 hours learning the functions of the camera.

which is crazy,since i missed the The City.

call me lame, but seriously since i have no drama in my life. i prefer to watch the ones happening to other people. It's comical and educational. to show u not be as dumb as them and to laugh at them at the same time.

so i've learned like a trillion thing on the camera yerterday, and this took me like 7 months to learn. i've been slacking around

.i had tons of fun with the shutter speed :D.

"Last night I fell in love without you
The coup-de-grace that set me off
Would've made for decent fiction"

-MCS

till next time,

Selamat Tinggal

That party last night was awfully crazy i wished we taped it.

i had a party last night.

heres the video :D

The future freaks me out.

Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm speaking figuratively, of course..
Like the last time that I committed suicide.. social suicide..
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I have learned to love the lie.

A snippet of a lyric sung by Justin Pierre. I'm beginning to like that line a lot. Call me dark but it's got meaning to it.

to irah,

thanks a bunch for writing me a birthday wish on your blog. Plus you made my day even more by posting a picture of Gerard Butler. Too bad you couldn't get a more *ehem* smexy picture of him due to people around you. haha

we must travel halfway around the globe to Ireland, so i can find me own irish lad...

i'm not kidding, we have too. :D

*drum roll pls*

I am finally eighteen. i guess its like being at the entrance of adulthood.

quote: the future freaks me out.

it comes from a song by MCS, and every time someone mentions the future to me, i have the urge to scream that sentence to them.

but you knw, we all no better to hide it and just face what we are up against.

whats life if we don't do that right?

again, so prior to being eighteen for already 22 hours. i googled: Things you can do when you turn eighteen.

results:

1. buy cigarettes
2. ... tear them up in front of the minors in front of the store who are trying to get people to buy cigarettes for them. [laugh]
3. legally buy pornography
4. take naked pictures of self. [no longer child porn.]
5. apply for a job at a gas station ... actually have a shot at getting it.
6. register to vote
7. go on a road trip without parental consent
8. get a body piercing
9. get a tattoo10. get your driver's license [if you don't already have it]
11. rent a camp ground
12. get a cell phone plan in your own name.
13. rent a hotel room. [have your party there.]
14. open up a checking account.
15. stay out as late as you please.
16. get a blockbuster card.
17. get a credit card [not recommended, though]
18. petition your government with something you feel strongly about ... and have them take you seriously. You actually have a shot now that you can vote them out of office.

yes, the wonders of being eighteen. it sounds scary and yet exciting. haha

though most of them are useless.

why the hell would i:

a) want to buy porn.do girls buy porn?

b) buy fags. come on.. they are selling fags like candies to little kids in malaysia here.

c) take naked pictures of myself..whuttaya talking about.

d) staying up late as long as i want. i've been doing that since i was ....a kid

i really like number 7. so maybe i would go for that :D

irah... lets go to ireland haha

would that be counted as a road trip?

it's freaking lame that i spent my first day being 8teen at home because there was a freaking haze and i couldn't step out of the house without sneezing. God! i hate the city/suburban area.

congested+polluted = sick me.

so yes, im thinking that i need to walk around with an air filter around my nose, maybe like a darth vader mask. he sure looks like he has one with all those heavy breathing coming out of him hahah

Its bad/horrid/awful living in the whole city area cause its polluted and all but seriously, imagine me living in the rural or kampung areas. i knw its stupid/shallow/uncultured of me but when i think of villages or kampungs in malaysia. i think of padi, chickens running loose and hantu pontianak roaming those wooden houses scaring the shit out of the villagers.

all this comes from watchng malay dramas where their villages are always...always enveloped by smoke at night rightttttt before the pontianak comes out for some fun and the fake screamng of the villagers.

screaming: Pontianak!! lari masuk rumah!!

and obviously someone just has to fall down and scream: tolong!! tolong!! * and its always a girl*

and then some religious man or the penghulu (leader of the village) will come and say some crap in malay.. blah ..blah and shoo the pontianak away and she will be like: bitch!! you ruined my fun. *in her thoughts* and swoop into the night with a chilling laughter.

and finally a meeting will happen amongst the villagers and the religious/penghulu person will alwayss....always be the one to expose the true pontianak or what she wants.

very cliche. if i must say. but still entertaining to watch. don't you think? im being such a racist to my own kind. -_-

okay im freaking crapping now. so yes comment if u do knw the name of the story cause i totally forgt.

ive never actually been to a kampong/village in my 8teen years of life. no kidding. im pretty weird as a malay child.

eighteen years and ive never really had a normal malay life i.e having a set of grandparents or more like malay religious/traditional grandparents...never celebrating raya at a kampung(which i want to)..i dont call my aunties/uncles pak ngah or mak ngah..never called anyone bang or kak coz noone in my family says it..and it feels weird for me to do so.

you must think im being...*obnoxious*

no! im not being obnoxious and perasan.

if you think i am, then maybe its cause you're jealous you're not a fucked up malay child. haha

it sucks sometimes, like when marissa, irah and tina talk abt this malay shows or actresses and im like -_- "huh?" or how tina went to akademi fantasia the final concert. haha i knw it has nothing to do with the topic. but its funny. haha

okay this blog is cacat.. it goes from one topic to another.so membelit or is it terbelit?. i better stop. im sorry if you dont understand... just shoot me :D

since i didnt have a cake for this year, compared to 4 cakes last year. god! i miss last year.

im wishing for:

Jared Followill.

(arab, shut up and don't laugh)

partyyyy hard.

till next time,

Selamat Tinggal.

With lust in my eyes, ill be undressing you with every word.

just when you thought Manglish songs would sound awful.

this one emerges to take me by suprise. haha

i was wrong to not like zee avi, you're pretty rad :D *lmao*

im sorry my recent post are more youtube-video related. I've nothing much going on in my life right now.

wishlist:

buy me a danbo :D

I <3 labelling people.

okay.. so watch the video.

the song is shit ( not a good kind of shit, a bad shit) but you have to like the whole concept of the video.

PS- i laughed my ass off at the guys in v-neck part.

Did someone break your heart inside?

song of the week:

Dreams,schemes and the moments i've wasted.

Current mood: creative,adventurous,content

Listening to: Dan Black, Symphonies.

lisan: awful,atrocious,horrible.

its easier to say that i fucked that one up.

i should really learn how to have a conversation in my own damn mother tongue.

I don't like you.

do you get what the picture is saying?

and i watched transformers today.

it was okay, though i do not understand what part mikaela plays in the movie. Megan fox was an unnecessary actress, there just to flaunt herself and her acting skills were flat and boring.

but i do know the guys will disagree strongly.

transformers will not be a hit without a hot girl flaunting herself ..besides the autobots trying to protect earth.

Selamat Tinggal

Blame it on the boogie.

Remember those moments in life when you're in the car and your parents have some 8o's or 70's tune playing from a cd or a radio. they crank it up really loudly and by gods help try to sing the song while reminiscing the days when 'disco' was the in thing. But in todays reality usually it's just 2 old people singing out of tune at the front of the car with their heads bobbing from side to side. Shame to those kids who have them as their parents.

and then the arguments begin where they start bragging about how freaking awesome-tastic their era was and blah..blah..blah about how awesome music was that time...how people made REAL music that time. Being us, we tend to fight back with comments such as those people didn't live in the real world... every song is just about sappy love...they don't capture how we live now...their songs have no feelings. This arguments can go on for hours..and hours.

so i am one of those kids that fight back and defend my generations music. i"m a 90's kid, so i grew up with the whole boyband(BSB,Nsync) and girly girl music coutesty of britney spears.

A few years later, after some growing up and maturing in my taste of music. I begin to appreciate the music my parents listen to which include Quincy Jones,The Jackson Five,Diana Ross,Aha,Toto,Level 42,Earth wind and fire,Gabriel,Michael Jackson,Queen... and the list just goes on and i begin to wonder if our generation of music will stand the test of time. It seems nowadays that every band,boyband,girlband or singer from every corner of the world seems to be a carbon copy of one another. Though there are some that stick out and represent a genre but rarely we find one that has the status icon. I really...really do wonder if the music i listen to like the killers,cut copy,coldplay,white lies,death cab for cutie,does it offend you,yeah? will continue to play in the future? i believe that the music i listen to now will be the ones that i will want to listen to when im old. haha Will there be a radio station that plays them? okay! so my choice of music isn't the mainstream tunes that they usually play a gazillion times on the radio until your ears bleed. Therefore, im seriously asking for something thats hard to get, especially in malaysia where the majority just loveee the mainstream music.

but it bugs me that my parents have the privilege of listening to their music after decades passed and what if im not granted the same?

so you might say, hye you can still use a cd idiot.

but the fact is that it won't be the same like when it's on the radio, at least if it's on the radio you know someone out there is also listening to it with you.

i'll be pissed off that i can't be one of those idiots (minus the bobbing head) at the front of the car listening to the radio while arguing with my kids about whose musical era was the most awesome-tastic. :D

what brought this whole blog up:

after watching 2 hours of M.J's music video on Mtv and channel V. i found it amazing how his music totally goes againts whatever era you come from.

today i was suprised by the fact that some primary school kids were caught downloading his tunes on their school laptops and it showed me how his music reaches out to anyone. even if your six (my sister is belting out Beat it) . hahah

i now can check off my mum's bday card photoshoot off my list. :D

irah came over today and we finished the whole thing and with amazing photos, i'm still contemplating on which one to choose as the main picture. so thanks to irah for coming... if she didn't i wouldnt have had any brill ideas.

pictures are not up yet, havent had time to view them yet.

and i can't believe i found this video on youtube. ive never watched it before.

so when i heard the song for the first time i had an idea of getting high and imagining the stuff the Beatles was saying

in the song.

and yes the video does prove you must get high.. haha well to me it does.

till next time,

Selamat Tinggal.

Better off as two.

its only a few days until her birthday and i only came up with this.

its awful...really need to go out and do something.

song of the week:

Look at that!

im getting a kick out of scanning old pictures, i don't knw why.

but i laughed my ass of looking at old pictures of me last night.

and i agreee i was an alien looking baby.

shaen,zehan,adrees and me.

hahaha.

Skeptics and true believers

okay first of all im going to start off by saying how shittt happy i am that:

a) the bahasa malaysia papers are overrr and done with

b) i got the freaking internet back, seriously i've been without it for a week and im near to killing myself. emo rite? * the internet controls my life*

so the whole week didn't start out that well cause i had the bahasa malaysia paper... and yes! i was freaking out when i did my paper. eventhough it's not rocket science, i have this disease where i can't think nor speak well in my own mother tongue.

added by the death of michael jackson on friday morning. Seeing as how my mum grew up with his music and has such a high level of adoration (is that a word?) towards him, i was forced to watch his death on CNN over....and over...and over again for like 20 times. which got me all depressed.

tributes were made and tears flowed.

my tribute would most probrably sound like this:

thanks for scaring the living daylights out of me when i was six years old, Thriller was a nightmare. yet it made me want to listen to your music more.

hahaha. and the part where i still am scared to watch Thriller all by myself till today.

besides that, i need to watch transformers because everyone will not stop gushing about how awesome it was. im still not that convinced to watch it. seeming as how i didnt watch the first one. the second one doesn't sound too appealing at all.

alien robots are not my cup of tea i guess.

i've been cracking my brain for 2 days now thinking about my mums b'day card photo shoot and i've finally got some good ideas. thanks very much to nylon and teen vogue and irah. *you are like the best man* i'll be damn happy if i can finish everything by 2mrw and post some pictures on Flickr.

things that need to be done:

1) finish the 450D book.

2) achieve dreams of working in advertising, i much prefer on being creative director. ha!

3) finish the b'day photoshoot.

4) get a job?

5) get a damn haircut, i look like hairzilla these days.

and seriouslly before i go, you just have to watch this.

as weird as this sound this song made me cry.

i dont knw, maybe i was PMS-ing or maybe it was just because of his voice and the song itself.

Selamat Tinggal.