Secret Alphabets

I've been very happy and sad this month.

i've been through a lot emotions yet i can't use any of them to fuel the creative side of me.

hmmmm....

im enjoying myself too much these days about something, i need a distraction.

I don't think its good to be too happy at times coz bad things will come and bite you in the ass. Right before you know it .. haha

yeah i doubt anyone understands what i just wrote, im not too open abt writing stuff on the net.

a few days ago, i found a line from a song that fit how i felt this whole year:

I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere.

so thanks ATL <3

ps- im still not over my kasabian thing. :D

oh btw, now i really really really want to go and see AAR, next next month. Just hoping this swine flu thing will be over and done.

you can sit beside me when the world comes down.

inspiration:a sudden intuition as part of solving a problem

Will somebody please be kind enough to pass me some of that these days. It's really getting on my nerves that I'm not even giving a damn about doing anything about it to fix it.

i used to be high on inspirations now im just not having any luck in catching anything around me.

oh im sorry for not updating much in August, ive just been *blank*
i guess you can say its not been an emotionally joyful month.

Im the king and she's my queen..bitch!

random thoughts for today:

1) im having a creative block these days, i can't seem to pick the camera and take a picture without hating it.
2) I'm really hoping it will go away soon, it sucks that i cant take pictures these days.
3) I can't seem to write about anything in my blog right now without adding something about Kasabian.
4) my mum is doubting me right now, she thinks i don't believe in god coz i keep speaking of death.
5) mums and their wild imaginations.
6) i do believe in allah, its just i've accepted the concept of death. if it comes for you..it comes for you.
7) i can't believe i just wrote that, now you must think im crazy.
8) get loose, get loose (kasabian-vlad the impaler)
9) did u knw vlad the impaler is count dracula. thanks wiki :D
10) some teacher in my sch died today coz of H1N1, i dont knw her. so im not really sad.
11) am i a bitch for being so heartless?
12) every parent in subang is on high alert now about this swine flu thing... suprise.
13) it wouldn't have gotten worse if malaysians actually used their brains and didnt go out when they were diagnosed with it.
14) we're the 4th highest country now, can u believe that. this small little country has the 4th highest death.
15) what does that say about us?
16) i dont think my parents are letting me out of the house at all.
17) i feel like eating ice kimo
18) i have kasabian running around in my head, and i don't think thats healthy.

I am in love with Sergio Pizzorno

this was how my head felt like after world stage:

jdhfbuervfbkehrbguergb that was soo fucking awesome hfbghfgbervhbv

omg! kasabian fjhgvrtjbvwehunfvew tysoooooooon ritter.

*dizzzzzzy*

dhfbeurfbuyerbf *out of breath* oh my godddd!

okay, i have to write all this down before i totallly forget what happened.

lineup:

estranged,boys like girls,Pixie Lott,Raygun,Hoobastank,The all american rejects and KASABIAN!

so yesss! they saved the best for last, even though everyone went home right after AAR. which is stupid coz kasabian was just fucking awesome. omg! seriously.. Tom Meighan!!! he cut his hair and he was wearing sunnies. * i sound like a little fangirl*

my cousin was right, kasabian gave it more of a festival ambiance after that.

too bad a lot people didn't stay back for them, they threw a hell of a show. iamsooinlovewiththem!

kasabian sang:

underdog,

shoot the runner

empire

where did all the love go?

vlad the impaler

clubfoot

All American rejects was when the crowd went ballistic, like crazy!!!

i mean everyone was just waiting for them to come out.

you could feel everyones energy and Tyson was like : you guys are soo awesome, we'd come here a 1000 times.

AAR sang:

i wanna..

dirty little secret

gives you hell

real world

leave when the wind blows

ends tonight

Boys like girls was awesome too, and i managed to get a wave from two guys from the band.

too bad it wasn't the hot one -_- hahah

martin climbed the side of the stage.

BLG sang:

love drunk

great escape

thunder

hoobastank was great too, though I'm not much of a fan. They ended with 'the reason' and everyone was singing their heart out.

and they did a cover of the Ghostbusters songs haha

Raygun totally BLEW ME AWAY. they were just soooo awesome live. i totally misjudged them from that "Just Because" song. Plus the lead singer was kindda hot haha

Pixie lott was...oookay.

estranged was........ *i wasn't paying attention to them*

i suck at describing concerts.

Till Next time,

Selamat Tinggal

The Dating Scene

Ungku Farah just took the "Why do guys like you?" quiz and the result is Because you're a laugh.

you make them happy, and want to be around you all the time, because they enjoy having someone there to always make them laugh! [:

i do a whole bunch of quizzes just to find out about that. seriously.....

and

Ungku Farah just took the "Why kind of guy do YOU attract?" quiz and the result isThe cute class clown.

He knows how to make u laugh out loud...and loves it! He makes u feel comfortable to be urself around him and that makes him a really great guy to fall for :)

Ungku Farah just took the "How do guys look at you." quiz and the result is The Quiet Girl.

You are the type of girl that is quiet, but you keep the guys interested and guessing. You never throw yourself out there and guys like that. You dont like being chased but it so happens that guys always chase you. Just because youre quiet doent mean that youre a good girl but guys dont have to know that, right?

Ungku Farah just took the "what kind of boys are you attracted too?" quiz and the result is Goodie Good.

Your the angel that never really gets in trouble, and go for the good boys. but watch out, he might just have a wild sidee.

conclusion:

if i were on an online dating website, i would say this:

eigteen,female,single who is quiet yet very interesting in search for a goody-goodie guy who is cute and a class clown. You will like me cause i make you laugh.

hahaha.

pls blame the facebook quizzes.

Learn to lose.

oh wow! its almost to the middle of August and i've only written one post so far and i wouldnt even call that an update of my life.

random post today.

so the usual question that people might ask you would be:

what are you doing now?

and i'd most probrably do a little smile, look away for a second and reply nicely:

oh i'm doing nothing now,just taking a break before you enter adulthood, where they suck your youthful,cheery soul and turn you into a hungry money making robot with no feelings.

okay... i would usually stop at the part where i say im on a break.

and this is what usually happens, IF... you happen to be talking to one of your friends or random people (nerds,weirdos,study geeks)

first they'll have this suprised face, it looks like this :O HAHA

then they will go: really.. wow you dont mind being late and behind everyone.

apparently, this convo annoys the hell out of me.

I'M NOT YOU...AND YOU'RE NOT ME.

when old people ask you, they can't be rude so they prob just try to brush that topic aside and ask what course you're planning to take when you're done with you're whole break thing.

i keep telling my dad about how this thing is bothering me, but he just says.

why does it bother you, you shouldnt care what other people think, you're not them and they are not you.

point proven, i stopped complaining since then.

due to this crazy outbreak of H1N1, my parents are as skeptical as hell about me going to world stage.

okay.. im beginning to reconsider

MY LIFE IS WORTH MORE THAN SEEING TYSON RITTER.

hahaha

spending list:

rm 25 on old magazines

rm 20 on wayfarers (worth it!)

rm 9.90 on plastic flowers.

rm 21 on necklace

rm 25 world stage passes

i have to lessen my spending on random things. theres more stuff but i just forgot.

im on a coke abstinence now, its almost been 2 weeks since i drank one.

till next time,

selamat tinggal.

I used to be love drunk but now I’m hungover.

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